Being a Mummy changed me. I didn't expect it to but it has. It's made me into a stronger and more determined person, every morning I wake up with something to live for, not that I didn't particularly prior to Alfie but these days every day just seems more worth getting up for. Regardless of the tantrums, the constant mess, the snotty noses and the challenges that come with parenting, at the end of the day that love I feel my boy reaches far beyond anything.
They say a mother's love is unconditional and it truly is, I would literally do anything for my boy, he means the absolute world to me, sometimes I think back to my pregnancy and marvel that I carried this little person inside me for 9 months and made him. It's just incredible, now our journey continues into the unknown toddlerdom and with a newborn on the way this will be a journey like no other.
Being a Mummy has taught me alot of things, mainly about myself but also about my husband. I've learnt that having a pristine house (not that it ever was before!) is not going to happen with a toddler, patience, I've learnt to be more patient with Alfie and my husband, I've also discovered that it takes an age to get out the house with a toddler in tow and it's probably going to be even more of a mission when the new one is here! I've also learnt that my husband is an amazing Dad, he truly is fantastic with Alfie and I'd never seen this side to him before this, he's always been a caring man but he has such a way with Alfie and it makes my heart melt when I see them together.
Bizarrely, when I found out I was pregnant with Alfie I never felt particularly maternal, I mean I always thought that I'd be a Mummy some day but during my pregnancy I was very worried about becoming a Mother and what it would entail, I had absolutely no idea how to take care of a squishy human being which was a scary notion, they don't come with a manual you know! Thankfully, I think I'm doing an alright job, yes he's mad, hyper and at times hard work but for all the hard times we're rewarded with cuddles, giggles and snuggles (occasionally!).
I remember feeling so odd when people referred to me as a 'Mummy' and were handing me back my squidgy newborn, it took me months to get used to it but now I love it, I enjoy telling people I meet that have a son and one on the way, I feel like these are the last few bits of jigsaw that are slowly slotting into place and this really excites me. I can't wait to see what the future holds and I will continue being Mummy.
A belated Happy Mother's Day to the wonderful Mum's out there and the ones that are looking down on us.