Today I suffered the worst kind of Mummy guilt.
The morning started off as it normally does, a mad rush to get ready and out of the door and Alfie to nursery and then to work.
As I'm driving around I see lots of Mums pushing their little ones around and I admit at times I feel this jealousy boil up inside me and I wish it was me pushing Alfie to the shops or meeting friends for lunch or just having a nice long walk together. I have to remind myself that I want Alfie to have nice things, I want us to go on lovely holidays and for him to have great memories, perhaps in the future I'll cut my hours down slightly so we can spend more time together but then by that time I guess he'll be at school!
I also have to say that even though leaving him at Nursery can be, at times excruciatingly painful I know that he loves it, he's come on leaps and bounds since going and he's always happy when we pick him up, full credit to the nursery too the staff are all brilliant and I do always feel that I trust them when I leave him there.
I think for the moment it's just going to be one of those ongoing battles in my head that will bother me for a long time, I now cherish my weekends off with him and love weekend cuddles.
I should also say that yes I do work full time as well as all the other things that I fit in around this but ultimately I am proud of what I do and what I have achieved.
Thankyou for reading as always!